New blog.
a me blog.
a day to day (or weekly) update on my life..
but first.. Allow me to explain what this is about, and introduce you to important people in my life.

This is Bec.
She's my best friend.
For obvious reasons shes pretty much the best.



















This is B.
My love interest who isn't interested anymore.
We fell in love on a trip to PEI.

:) <--- B.

This is D.
I love her.
She understands and shes beautiful. Duh..














My life is based around these people.
although many more will appear.

P. A very close friend
C.C. an old friend who would listen to me for five hours.
C.vanO Brents room mate/band mate and a good friend of mine.
M. D's brother. aka nicest guys ever born. Crush*.
Mtriv. A friend who I love.
Ben. My locker buddie.
J. My old best friend.
Ma.. self explanatory.

this is the way my life is. Day to day. Starting with what you have to catch up on to understand what will happen in next posts..
...So it begins...

I guess I can begin with how this started. I have a best friend. We met about a thousand years ago in a previous life... And then again 8 years ago. Her name is Bec. Her parents are like mine, and her sister aswell. We share everything.. Except menstral cycles, which is odd.

Then there is B. I pretty much love him. First guy I've ever loved. We were best friends for one year and decided to date... We had awesome sex.

D, she dated B before me. And he was pretty much a dink to her, and now I feel bad for never taking her advice. She understand what I go through seeing as she went through the exact same thing... We gossip about a guy we secretly share.

M. My crush.. Although I love B, M is the next best thing. We were seeing each other briefly after B and I broke up, then I realized things were moving too fast, and I needed to break. He told me he was done with my just today, but good friends don't just disappear.

Allow me to be forward. This is my life, and I want everyone to take a good look and see what's up.

After me and B broke up, a week later I found out he had slept with his ex... All the while he was telling me he wanted to get back with me, I wondered how he could say such things, and then do that behind my back, then I found out, he did it when we were together...

HELLO?!

wow. Best friend. Boyfriend. Sleeping around. Perfect. Then a few weeks later. im late..

and not the late you think.

real live late. I did not get my period late.

and I was real live flipping out. FLIPPING out.

but happily, nothing happened. Took the test. Came back negative. Got drunk.

I met M at work. Well, I met him before work, but he came into work one day and we talked, exchanged numbers and hug out 4 consecutive nights after. He was kind. And never once pressured me. He treated me well. But I realized quickly that things were moving too fast. And I was still hurting from B.

Soon after, me and B started to talk again. hes a good friend. A best friend. And it felt good to have him back in my life, as much as he hurt me. I went to his apartment and we talked. We laughed. The way we were before. And it was the most amazing feeling. He gave me a gift, and we hugged for 10 minutes straight. some things never change.

he loves someone else though... And its not even his ex girlfriend he jeopardized our relationship for.

P and D have been really good to me through the whole thing. They understand. I think B has been feeding Bec a lot of shit.. And since he has never hurt her, she doesn't understand.

Last night I hung out with B, CvanO, and bec. I gave B his present back.

he told me that if I wanted to text M all night, I could go to fuck home, and that the only reason I want to go to Saint Andrews is because I want to make out with my ex.

sorry im not you, B.

Tomorrow is mine and B's one year.. A year ago tomorrow I met him. I plan on calling him.

I'll let you know how it goes.